BurntHeroin

#55 - We'll almost fall apart, then burn to pieces, so watch them turn to dust

2012-02-16T16:48:00.006+08:00

♥

Hope to meet up this Saturday with the rest of the dancers and friends!

On a side note....MY FACE DAMN FAT :(

Back from work!!! The crowd is pretty small on a weekday, even though I report for work at 10am, we only get a rush of customers from around 1pm onwards, so it's almost 2 hours of slacking! 10-11am is used to start preparing the shop and ice cream. I think I walked a lot slower today haha I was aching EVERYWHERE from the dance session on Tuesday!!!! My butt my upper thigh and my calves haha but hey at least I know I got a good workout in those places.

Bought cream cheese and butter on my way back, gonna bake cream cheese brownies either tonight or tomorrow!! ☺ I REALLY MUST STOP EATING ALL THIS CHOCOLATE AND CAKES AND BISCUITS!!! But they're so goooooooood omg I swear I eat ice cream almost everyday now. Okay should be thankful I'm fortunate to be able to have them in my tummy~

I just remembered this! When I went for dance on Tuesday the teacher mentioned that the class was welcome to participate in the recital that Danzpeople was gonna hold on May 4th (if I didn't hear wrongly!) I thought she was inviting us to watch but no she was actually offering an opportunity to perform!! And it's gonna be a piece with awesome music ie. 2NE1's I Am The Best & Beyonce~ I don't know why she offered it to us, cos usually they get the best students or those with more experience than us to perform, so I think there will most probably be an audition or something! I'm rather interested though, after all it's really such a rare chance, and I'm gonna do my best for it ^^ Hopefully everything goes well and...... a few months down the road I'll be trying to persuade people to come watch me HAHA.

DINZ TIME MY TUMMY IS GROWLING. Peace ouuuuuuut and I'll update again soon!

#54 - Under haunted skies I see you, where love is lost your ghost is found

2012-02-15T13:05:00.011+08:00

I don't even know....

I don't know why but this is a must do whenever a lot of dancers gather hahaha

LEGS DAMN NOOOONG LA JEALOUS MAX.

I'm supposed to be mock biting Jo LOL but somehow it looks like I'm looking for dandruff in his hair omg.

Girls bring the boys out~

Guy BFF <3

CANNOT RESIST DOING THIS POSE HAHA.

So tall for what why never donate some inches to me.

There's a whole series of shots that look like those kind of clubbing photos haha!

On the train back home, green line people ^^ (Our skin tone all damn different haha I'm so yellow la!! Or is it fair. *Pray it's fair*)

This was when Char and I had an impromptu meet up before I started work and she went to watch a movie~ She ordered a double scoop of ice cream only but my manager was super nice and gave us a free brownie!!! Super nomz. Still got a 30% discount after that hehehe so total bill was only $7.80 instead of like an exorbitant $17++!! So come visit me more often ^^

So........yesterday was Valentine's Day! Felt kinda weird as it was the first V-day that wasn't spent in school with friends :( I miss the spirit of gift giving!! It wasn't called Friendship Day for nothing! Miss the hectic rushing around to find people, miss the exchanging of handwritten notes & presents, miss baking for people and wrapping the prezzies up, miss the hugs and all the laughter we would share :( Especially the times in AHS. Those times just seem more heart-warming and poignant now. I spent my V-day with my 18 boyfriends.

Mr Coffee, Mr Mango & Passionfruit, Mr Strawberry Cheesecake, Mr Belgian Chocolate, Mr Green Tea, Mr Raspberry Sorbet, Mr Chocolate Midnight Cookies...

Yeah my 18 tubs of ice cream. HAHAHA well it wasn't that baaaad a V-day actually, did a cake delivery today again and got to rest for a while in a cab to Loyang >8D Rushed off at 3, headed home and showered, grabbed my zebra pweeeenz gym bag and went to Pomo for dance~ Today's session was a lot more focused on street jazz than hiphop and isolation, pretty fun :) MY STAMINA SUCKS. BIG TIME HARDCORE.

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Was so exhausted halfway omg and as usual I was the only one perspiring like crazy, at the end of the session I looked like I took a long shower while everyone else were so dry and fresh -.- WHY ARE MY SWEAT GLANDS SO ACTIVE WHY. F said maybe it was my metabolism rate being really high?! Really ah haha I HOPE SO. Burn those fats burn burn burn~ Went to Bugis after that to get my purple Beats earpiece!!!!! Like finally! I went there once a few weeks ago to buy them but they didn't have purple, according to the guy at the shop, sales have been crazy good and I guess purple's a really popular colour! So only managed to buy the orange one for H but left empty-handed for myself :( Really happy that I got it and by the way, I didn't get purple cos I like Bieber. It's just unfortunate that Hogod and Bieber have the same fav colour okay haha!

Anyhoo I updated the layout slightly, am gonna find a new image for my sidebar! I really don't like taking selcas and using them and it's reeeeeeeaaaaaally rare when I actually post shots of myself so...shall stick to using gorgeous Tumblr girls/pictures.

In my satin strawberry PJs now after nomming on yumz udon for lunch (yes I like PJs I'm such a grandma), gonna watch my reality shows whooooo ^^ Update again sooooooooon!

#53 - Through chaos as it swirls, it's us against the world

2012-02-10T15:42:00.007+08:00

I really really miss this :(

Not just the dancing, (the exercising too I'm such a lazy bum nowadays boohoo me) but the people! This picture kinda shows all our personalities ahahaha I'm not gonna analyse it, I'll leave it up to you to ;)

This was lunch today! (Yes I have an unhealthy obsession with food I LOVE IT TOO MUCH). Daddy cooked steak and butter rice, made salad for himself, and heated up popcorn chicken! Smoked salmon as side dish :) I'm so blessed yes I know haha my family loves to eat as much as I do! You probably can say I'm influenced by them. So today I had ALL OF THAT + two raisin cream cheese buns + two almond cookies + quarter durian egg tart (It doesn't taste as bad as it sounds actually and btw I'm not a durian lover, more like the 'if you put in front of me I'll just eat it' type + four squares of chocolate FML all the calories.
Sighsighsighsighsigh okay I should be thankful I have all this food but how in the world am I not gonna grow another layer of fats soon :(

BARBARA PALVIN IS ONE OF MY TOP FAVOURITE MODELS OMG LOOK AT HER SHE'S FLAWLESS.

*runs off to cry at own imperfections fml why am I so hideous*

One bad thing about being on Tumblr and following fashion blogs/hipster blogs is that your dashboard is just full of perfect girls like her and you just scroll and scroll and scrrrrooooollll and it's still all perfection sigh. Not to mention, when I was on Twitter I saw an interesting link to Xiaxue's blogpost on fat people and a few hundred clicks & 2 hours later I had scrolled the bejeesus out of my mouse, I read the popular blogs. Like, THE blogs. I.e. Xiaxue, Sophie, Cheesie, Dawn, Pxdkitty etc etc. It's...........pretty interesting? To take a peep into their lives and see what it's like to be them. But somehow I just feel like it's not ideal to be them Idk just my thoughts. Lazy to explain. (Can I blame it on the afternoon heat that's roasting my brain cells thankQ)

Anyhoo, back to work tomorrow! I'm really glad I got a job in the F&B industry. I don't think I can stand having to face a computer screen all day long and just sit there like a pile of fats doing admin work. Not only is it bawring as hell I don't get any exercise except my fingers. So no thankQ, customer service job for me baby! Honestly it's tiring, having to smile and give the best service all the time especially when you're starving and all you want to do is sit down for 5 minutes but when I see the little kids enjoying their icecream I'm really happy :> And sometimes they play with me hehehe there was this little boy who played peek-a-boo with me aww so adorbz!!!!! I'm such a sucker for kids seriously everytime I point out a super cute baby my mum will go "你生一个啦!!!!" LOL MUM NO OBVIOUSLY NOT. Okay I've diverted from what I wanted to say and that was this particularly embarrassing incident during work last week. So this group of 3 came in and ordered a fondue set. (WHICH IS A BITCH TO WASH UP EURGHHH.) When I put the tray on the table one of the guys asked me "Excuse me, what kind of chocolate is this?" Guess what I said. Of all the idiotic things to say......

I said "Melted chocolate..." and then ran away.

MELTED CHOCOLATE. OF ALL THINGS TO SAY OMG I'M STILL FEELING SO EMBARRASSED NOW SERIOUSLY I BET HE THOUGHT I WAS A BIMBO OR SOMETHING. (Okay bimbo is pretty but stupid so no shouldn't use bimbo should use stupid) Oh man. Btw the answer is dark chocolate. Sigh gaise. My face. Dunno where to put already I guess I'll just leave it in the dustbin :(

Googling for recipes to bake! Chocolate nutella and hazelnuts. I'm craving chocolate cake, a super thick slice with a lot of fudge and sauce on top and the craving is not going awaaaaaaayyyy. If you buy cake or actually any other dessert outside it's rather expensive, so I'm just gonna bake my own! :> Good luck to me *crosses fingers*

Off to watch all the reality shows + dramas that I haven't been catching up with!!! Too busy reading my books heh btw my record is 2 books a day and the books are >500 pages long okay!!! (What kind if achievement is this I don't even...) Watching MBLAQ's Hello Baby + Tadah It's B.A.P + gonna start on Shut Up! Flower Boy Band (what a stupid name seriously but I'm only watching it for Myungsoo who's not even my bias but that's beside the point cos everyone knows there's no such thing as a 'bias list' when it comes to Infinite LOL) + Birth Of A Family the last few episodes!!! DANG THAT IS A LOT OF SHOWS HAHA. So happy watching to me ^^ Update soon, bye gaise xx

#52 - You set it again, my heart's in motion, every word feels like a shooting star

2012-02-10T15:07:00.007+08:00

Went to the library recently, this was my haul! Thank goodness there's a direct bus home from Tampines library if not I would have DIED carrying these books home. Looks like a little pile but there are 15 books omg. Anyhoo, Imma be a happy little hermit/bookworm this weekend~

I loveeeee using Instagram to edit photos! These aren't the prettiest shots I know but the lighting at the restaurant wasn't v good anyway so these are the best I can muster! Lunched @ T.G.I. Friday's with my parents (my brother was at school ahaha sux to be you teehee)! Was actually a dian deng pao oops cos it was supposed to be their Valentine's Day lunch! BUT WHO CAN RESIST GOOD FOOD RIGHT. So anyway, went to I12 Katong :) It isn't one-one-two Katong by the way it's I-one-two Katong! Just like Ion Orchard which is supposedly, I-on Orchard. As in, 'Eye'-On Orchard. Whoever came up with the names.....*smacks forehead* Anyhoo the top photo is of Daddy's meal, he chose Cali sandwiches which was freaking thick and nomz, I love the toasted sandwich bread! The second one is of mine, I chose BBQ Beef Tacos! Was deciding between the Cali sandwiches or that but I went for the latter in the end cos you hardly get tacos in SG so :) It was pretty good and I did ask the waiter if the portion was big and he said no, but I was rather full after finishing!!! (Although it's about an hour after I ate and I'm hungry FML what's wrong with me) The fries are not too bad, not soggy or oily and lightly seasoned, but I'm not really a fries person so I don't especially enjoy eating them haha! The tacos were filled with steak bits and were really good and flavourful, the juice was oozing out and I was dripping the lettuce tomatoes and sauce everywhere HAHA. Mumsie had the Jack Daniel's ribs! Was good too, the sauce with the ribs was sweet and yumz with the caramelized onions from my tacos :) We all chose the set lunch btw so we had unlimited flow of salad soup and drinks!!!! Damn awesome and being typical Singaporeans we had like 3 or 4 refills HAHAHAHA.

The tenant mix is pretty good! Lots of retail outlets & apparently there's an aqua playground on the top level!! (but boohoo didn't manage to check it out cos we had to leave after lunch) AND CAN I JUST SAY I LOVE THE F&B OUTLETS THERE. There's this wonderful Japanese mart that sells tons of things and of course the first section I ran to was the ice cream section!!! They had my fav matcha and red bean icecream wafers omg <3 And mochi & daifuku omg love love love desserts!! (I'm such a sucker for food ya I know heh) There was a craaaaaazy number of brands selling Jap curry as well wow. A whole wall was dedicated to the biscuits and I have to say, Japanese food engineers are the wackiest in the world. They have tiramisu and strawberry cheesecake flavoured Pocky sticks?!?! Other restaurants included Canton Paradise, Gong Cha, Hongkong Dessert, Sukiya, Sushi Tei, Charly's, The Soup Spoon and some other interesting ones like this outlet selling frozen yoghurt cakes!! Which was the first time I've ever seen one, usually you hear of/see ice cream cakes (like at Haagen Dazs cough cough) but froyo?! And they sold taiyaki (yummy fish-shaped pancakes) with froyo filling instead of the usual red bean/cheese/chocolate filling! So tempted to buy and try but I'd definitely busted my calorie limit for the day so nooo :( I'LL BE BACK THOUGH. Bought a red velvet cupcake from House of Mini, I'll take a pic before nomming on it and post it heh! I realised that F&B outlets tend to have really good discounts and promotions for lunch so must make full use of my loooong post A's holidays and go out for lunch more often!!!! ^^

And how I'm gonna fund my lunch is another issue. Okay I feel bad for continuing to take my pocket moolah from daddy but my payday is not until the 20th this month!!! 10 more days sigh. It's my first payday anyway, pretty excited to see the numbers in my bank book jump by a few hundred ^^v

Found out Char uploaded the photos from the outing for the NS boyz a long time ago, will upload them + some other photos we took when we met @ HD for icecream, before I had my shift! Will dig and upload as well~

Okay no one reads my blog I feel like I'm just talking to myself hahaha but it's pretty therapeutic doing this!! Will update next time when I decide to come out of my hermit shell, see y'all :3 xx

#51 - Lights go out & I can't be saved, tides that I tried to swim against

2012-02-01T11:27:00.006+08:00

Come on skinny love just last the year
Pour a little salt we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in the moment this order's tall

I told you to be patient, I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced, I told you to be kind
In the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different "kind"

I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines
Come on skinny love what happened here
Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full; so slow on the split

I told you to be patient, I told you to be fine
I told you to be balanced, I told you to be kind
Now all your love is wasted?
Then who the hell was I?
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you?
Who will fight?
Who will fall far behind?
-Skinny Love, Bon Iver

My new favourite song.

#50 - I find it hard to believe you don't know, the beauty you are

2012-02-01T10:57:00.002+08:00

Met up with some of dance family today :) Really, immensely glad that everyone took time off their individual busy schedules to meet and say goodbye to those enlisting! Didn't expect to see Mel there too but it was lovely that she droppped by as well, took a polaroid picture with everyone, let's hope I can get my hands on a photo of it and I'll upload it ^^

I was kinda afraid that t would be slightly awkward when everyone met, after all it's been months since the last time I spoke to some of them face to face. I was relieved when that didn't happen, had a nice time chatting and catching up with each other. Talked about dance, our respective part time jobs, army, our travels during the holidays, it was such a wonderful time :)Had a good meal together and went up to the rooftop of Marina Square to chill. Took tons and tons of photos together, hope they'll be uploaded some time soon! SO MANY CRAZY SHOTS HAHA.

Ben, Jo, Ethan, you guys will be sorely missed. And all the other guys enlisting, 2 weeks to (a very small) freedom!! Can't wait to catch up with them again after that :)

I find myself looking forward to blogging almost everyday haha! So well, this might last longer than I think it will, very hopefully. Going out shopping today, ON MY OWN. Yes I'm such a loner boohoo suxxxxx to be me. See y'all again soon :) x

#49 - Back?

2012-01-31T11:36:00.003+08:00

I don't think anyone reads this blog anymore, for one, even I don't. I haven't touched Blogger ever since I laid my hands on Tumblr, so......this is really old and rotting isn't it!

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*blows imaginary dust off blogspot webpage*

Honestly I never thought I'd be back here. Tumblr was good for everything - videos, websites, text posts, gogeous photos, but I just felt something was lacking. When I typed things out on Tumblr it just felt....Idk it just didn't feel as therapeutic as typing out a blog post. None of my Tumblr followers (okay well, a small minority) know me in reality and although I do love the bond between Tumblr users and the memes, I kinda missed blogging. Didn't really feel it till one day, I remembered I used to blog (not a lot though haha) so out of curiosity I typed in my old URL and revisited this page you're reading!

Read a few of my older posts. I think a lot of people would be all like "OMG I WAS SUCH A NERD/TOOT/IDIOT LAST TIME WHY DIDZzxzZX iiEE RitTee likeE diS?!?!" (LOL thank god I was never a twit it's so tiring to type twit language) but I don't really feel that way. Guess I haven't matured a lot HAHAHA. It's nice though, to look back at your 15/16 year old self and remininsce (I sound like I'm some 80 year old LKK sigh). Kinda miss secondary school, as much as I keep calling Anglican a 'glorified neighbourhood school.' Oops.

I don't know how long this blogging phase will last again? Hopefully a much longer time :) Guess I'll be editing the layout of this page, if I'm lazy I'll just keep the simple white layout, if I have time I'll format my own, or search for ready made ones! I have totally forgotten how to type HTML codes and it's so nostalgic to see the orange and blue colours of Blogger~ Will still be Tumblring though! :)

Gonna have a night out with some of dance family. The boys are enlisting and it'll be nice to have a good meal together before they get tortured 8) Shall end this post right here (I'm always so darn bad at endings sigh), see y'all again :) x

$#48 - Baby Cause In The Dark, You Can See Shiny Cars

2010-01-30T13:36:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to say. Being in VJC totally blows my mind away like boomz boomz powz. It's like x10 the enthusiasm of AHS and when you look @ the way we Anglicans cheer during basketball finals, that's something incredible! Am super exhausted from the cheering & stomping (I think my right leg will cramp anytime now) & dancing & hyper-ing with my OG mates (Who by the way are so awesome & I'm so glad we are together because we all click like CLICK haha) & running around the school playing station games & dancing Sorry Sorry for the seniors to earn points ("MC MC MC WHY SO WHY SO WHY SO SEXY SEXY SEXY SEXY MC WHY SO SEXY BABYEH!!!") & going "CREUDOR IS WHAAAAAT?!?! DYNAMITE!!!" &havig fun with OGLs and seniors & doing the school cheers & all that. Am looking forward to massive mass dance @ Suntec. Next Friday!! ^^

Episode 10 already! I need to catch up before the studying really starts. Which is in appropriately 1 week :(

Oh my God Subject combination. I don't know what to take & I feel like dying whenever someone talks to me about it. Yuckkkkks. I hope God or whatever higher being up there will give me inspiration and lucidity in a stroke of brilliance, preferably before Sunday night, 2359 sank you berry mat!

Prolly one of the rare times I'm actually looking forward to school on Monday! I am, so very very much! Update soon byez.

#47 - She Was More Like A Beauty Queen From A Movie Scene

2010-01-27T10:11:00.003+08:00

FIRST CHOICE BABY.

Really happy but a bit sao3 xing4 in the morning. I told my mum not to tell me where I got posted to & that I would call the hotline to find it out myself. My mum got the text (I put her number cause my phone is bonkers, I scared cannot get the text) @ 6.45am, apparently she texted my aunt, & my aunt texted me to say congratz before I could call @ 8am. So, a bit sao3 xing4, but never mind, I'm so glad and thankful I got my first choice. Congratz to everyone else too! B)

FATZ I'M DAMN SAD. MINISTRY OF EDUCATION BROKE MY HEART. I'M GONNA MISS YOU AND WE MUST NEVER, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER EVER SHU1 YUAN3 OKAY!!! SOUL SISTERS + FATTIES OF THE WORLD + BFFS FOR LIFE CROSS MY HEART AND HOPE TO DIE!

Going roller blading again today with Aunty's gang. Can't wait can't wait! :)

#46 - Don't Sell Your Heart, Don't Say We're Not Meant To Be

2010-01-26T14:40:00.005+08:00

"My heartless boy,

don't you remember

how you gave me a thimble

instead of a kiss?

You wanted someone

to mother lost boys

and thread stories together

by the fire, while mending

holes in your clothes

torn from fighting

redskins and pirates alike.

I bet that you still get

entangled in adventures

that you still wind up

frolicking with fairies,

teasing Tiger Lilies,

and mooning mermaids

on a blue lagoon.

You've stranded me

here - is this still another

game? Or have you really

forgotten my name,

which I should have

stitched in your memory?

For years, I pretend

you would fly through

the window, take me

straight on till morning,

give me a kiss, call me

Darling, and never

ask me to grow up.

But it's too late now -

I have become my mother,

compulsively picking up

these pins and needles

spilled on the floor

by wind from the open

window, Besides,

I have forgotten how

to fly, I can never land

there where you are.

Though I have no doubt

You have found another.

You will always need

some other girl to sew

your shadow back on."

- Wendy's Last Letter To Peter

This is so sad. & I'm so inexorably jealous of Wendy in the photo.

I feel so terribly accomplished. Finished 3 episodes of Hai Pai in 2 days! Which is an achievement considering that I took a break of like 3 weeks & didn't watch a single second at all. The part where he meets her in the office of the radio station is super funny. Cannot stop laughing @ him. Mum calls him an idiot. Kinda true lah :)

#45 - We're Screaming Like Demons Swinging From The Ceiling

2010-01-20T19:44:00.007+08:00

3 straight days of seeing Fatz it's a wonder my eyeballs haven't dropped out yet!!!

1st day was @ Changi Airport T3! Makan + walk walk @ Bugis. We were toying around with the idea of coming to my house to play Wii but somebody lazy haha.

2nd day was @ ECP! Fatz went running & cycling & I bladed. Very tiring after 1 and a half hours but we sweated it out. Or, rather, me. HAHA sweating queen. ECP was really really quiet, it being a weekday, so we almost had the whole beach to ourselves! Took photos but no camwhoring this time! The sea kept lapping @ our sand drawings until we became quite desparate. Like, I would finish drawing & yell for Fatz to "HURRY UP AND TAKE PEEKTURE!!!!" Cause 3 seconds later ZOOOOOOM, the sea came in & bye bye to our drawings. & we screamed like crazy people when the sea came in to lap @ our feet. In the end our feet still got wet, esp Fatz who was wearing covered shoes! Her socks were sopping wet & full of sand that collected. Gross haha. It even came up to our thighs. Washed up & set off for Fatz' house, played this super duper uber cute board game called 'The aMAZEing Labyrinth" that was good fun! & I WON HAHAHA BEGINNERS' LUCK! B) Lazed around, used her lappie!, confused Joan Jia Si Le on MSN, convinced Pei Fang not to buy an over-priced coat, hijacked Fatz' Facebook, listened to Husband on her blog over & over & over & over & over, slacked around, lazed on her sofa, watched BFB for a while then went home. Great fun :)

3rd day, our gang went out! Kinda sad cause not everybody managed to make it, but @ least we still had fun. Makan @ Swensens + Bowling + Tooth Fairy! The movie was super funny, I loved the amnesia dust part!

"Amnesia dust. That's how it works."

*Sprinkles the dust on Thompson's face*

"That's how what works?"

"Never gets old."

Shucks it was so funny! Fatz loves Chase Ellison (guy who plays Randy Harris) more right! Tsk. Haha :) & I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THAT MOVIE CAUSE IT KEPT MENTIONING PETER PAN, JAM, & PINE!!! ^^ "22nd Pine Street" Everytime they were mentioned in the movie I turned to Fatz & laughed. This should be like the best movie for mentioning my favourite people & things inside. All 3 leh! Loved it so much :)

So right now, I'm just tired. Tired from the one & a half hours of blading & 2 games of bowling. Haven't bowled in a long time, like 10 years? I kid you not.

Time to eat Ben & Jerry's & count down to posting results day. Yucks.

#44 - Tonight Imma Fight Till We See The Sunlight

2010-01-18T16:09:00.003+08:00

LG Joy GM 730!!!

(Okay currently my blog looks like a website advertising handphones.)

I GOT MY NEW EPIC (IDK WHETHER REALLY EPIC OR NOT BUT IT'S SO MUCH NICER THAN MY LOUSY LAO YA SAMSUNG ONE SO I'M IN 7TH HEAVEN) PHONE! & I have unlimited sms so yes, Fatz, you can spam me anytime you want & I FINALLY can spam you back. Not that our mutual spamming is good haha. I love the phone but right now it's charging so best not play around with it but I can't wait to get up tomorrow & wreak havoc with it! SO in the end no Nokia 5800 Xpress Music which costs $148. The LG Joy costs $98 & it's much newer by like a year. It's got a lot of things I don't really need like Microsoft stuff cause it runs on Windows, the basic music player, FM radio, 5 MP camera. So it fufills all my needs & it's really really sleek & light! 107g I think. So I'm estatic happy over the moon overjoyed (insert other suitable synonyms for happy here) blah blah blah...Only bad point is that I have to change my number by the new number is pretty nice also! Hehe it's the same like my 81303810, either you can remember it cos it's repeated, or you can't.

I'm super content now. Never mind of it's gonna break down halfway or something it can break down for all I care (oh but please try not to,Mr Phone!) cause the fact that I got my new phone is happiness itself.

I AM VERY EXCITED ABOUT THURSDAY I HOPE THE OTHER 10(tentatively 10?) PEOPLE ARE EXCITED ABOUT THURSDAY TOO!!! ^^ Cannot wait to hang again I miss us like crazy. But don't worry Fatz I don't miss you, I see you every day on my thighs.

Off to stare @ my gorgeous phone while it charges.

#43 - I Would Be The Sunlight In Your Universe

2010-01-17T15:29:00.007+08:00

The Nokia 5800 Xpress Music.

Mum thinks I should get a plan but it's so damn expensive for a user like me. Who survives on $18 worth of credit for like 1 month, 1 and a half month about that. I know right how do I ever manage to control my usage?! Good thing I'm not a texting maniac. Although if I get unlimited SMSes from student plan I may just turn into 1. The problem is I really don't know if my usage will shoot up in JC so...Well anyway if I do get a phone, I'll prolly get this. I don't really like Nokia's designs but this has touchscreen!! & I think it's nicer than the rest of the designs Nokia has, plus it's Xpress Music. So I'm good ^^ Didn't want Samsung cos I'm terribly sick of it. Only looked @ Sony Ericsson & Nokia this time. The former for its designs (Yari's colour super pretty! Cranberry White!!!) & the latter for it's functionality. I managed to get my hands on a real, working Nokia 5800, & I played around with it. You can use a stylus with it or use your fingers, it's good both ways. I don't mind switching back to Nokia for sometime while Sony Ericsson comes with better functions & Nokia gets sleeker designs.

The Nokia 5800 Xpress Music Mini.
This one is basically the same as the above, just that it's a little smaller, lighter, & much sleeker! Really! If you look @ the actual 5800, it's not as nice as the one in the picture there. The Mini is super yummy!!! You can't really see the difference here though, but take my word for it, so gorgeous. I love it but the telcos don't offer it with a plan. If I buy it off the rack it's $368, a tad ex for me but Dad says he's okay with it. Well it's his $$$ ka ching right lol.

So I'm getting my new phone soon. & I have to change number, that's bloody irritating, I love my old number! I have a strong emotional attachment to it lah.

STOP ASKING ME ABOUT THE ICESKATING THINGY I WILL SERIOUSLY TEAR MY HAIR OUT IF SOMEONE ASKS ME AGAIN RARRRGH!!!

Okay point made bye.

#42 - I Don't Know Why Good With You I'll Dance, In A Storm, In My Best Dress, Fearless

2010-01-15T11:21:00.010+08:00

Keane, my cousin B) He LOVES fresh cream as much as me!
See. Yummy right!!

Proudly showing off his Spongbob tee. But you don't have boobs so don't thrust your chest out lah.

I do think my family went a tad overboard. My mum took me out for a good lunch @ Manpuku @ Tampines 1. I know I'm like super suaku Tampines 1 open so long already I haven't even gone in once right! We shared a few yummy dishes (THE OMU RICE = NOM NOM NOMZ) & my mum, being MY MUM, had 2 macha (green tea) ice creams. "Cause they're only $1 each what?!?!" But they were really yummy ^^ Although I have to say, for budget ice creams
, nothing beats Ikea's $1.50 soft serve. NOTHING. Haha okay point made. & guess what, it's crazy, we both ate till full & the bill only came up to $16.50 before GST! Like $8 a person @ Manpuku & we managed to fill our tummies! Kinda cheap & not too bad so we're going back for the Omu Rice B) & then she brought up the idea of having a celebration for my results. Which are not thaaaaat good, so I was thinking why is everyone so excited? Prolly has to do with me being the oldest on my mum's side of the family like I've said before. So went to Bakerzin, Secret Recipe & Say Cheeze which was akin to running around like half of Tampines 1. Finally got a cake from Secret Recipe, marble cheese. I still have a tiny slice in the fridge, & Imma savour it after lunch today. Something funny: The employees @ Secret Recipe asked if we wanted any icing on the cake, & my mums said yes, we want Congrats! Then she said: "Congrats with a Z okay! Boomz Boomz Powz!" I almost died of laughter & embarrassment right then & there lah! Had the celebration @ night with my aunt who lives just 2 blocks away from us ^^

Got dragged to VJC & TJC on that very same day. Dragged cos I'm a very super duper uber lazy person who hates going to Open Houses. Not even for the freebies okay! So along the expressway I was moaning & groaning & complaining. I don't really like having to walk around & feeling out of place in a JC on a shool day. Thank goodness we reached there about 4/5pm & not so many people left. I have like a mild phobia of strangers. Or you can just call it self-consciousness. Well anyway we walked around, checked out the General Office, asked some questions etc etc...My mum went to look @ the toilets & canteen. She said they're the most important places in a school! Haha quite true lah. & then I saw somebody so that was pretty cool. Haven't seen him in such a long time I've kinda forgotten how he looks like. & to think he was once my EyeCandy. Sigh terrible right. Okay never mind haha. Overall, I got a clearer picture of the 2 JCs & what the JAE selection process is like. Hopefully I don't have to know sooooo much about the appeal process, if you get what I mean :)

So now my days are spent slackign @ home, going to the library, going out with my mum or running errands for her, takign care of my brother, nothing much. & of cos anticipating the posting results. Oh gosh. Good luck to all of us, I think we all need it! Off to lunch my crossiants are squeaking eat me eat me!

#41 - Out On The Edge Of Forever, Ready To Run

2010-01-11T21:00:00.004+08:00

I like your side profile. A lot a lot a lot.

Spieling Peter is the most adorable Peter Pan in the Disneylands ^^

(Even Fatz thinks he's cute! Heehee)

Okay firstly, this:

Thank you very very much Teri!

I was like super excited when I saw you in the hall today already & I was really bonkers haha. I opened the letter & I was so superbly happy!!! CHRIS & MY FACE TOGETHER WAH I ALMOST DIED. I read the letter in a blur cause I was really nervous & excited @ the same time but I did manage to understand it. Brain neurones zapping away furiously. & I LOVE THE SHIRT!!! I laughed like crazy @ the "ME!!" pointing @ Wendy & I think it's brilliant! B) Got home & I truly sat down to read the letter. Firstly, I don't think I'll ever change being all of crazy, laughy, sensitive, spontaeneous, etc. Ever. Secondly, yes, Sec 2 was the most awesome time we had together & I'm so glad that we had the opportunity to bond! Thirdly, please don't talk about JH anymore, I am totally mortified, especially about the 2.4km run thing. I want to run 2.4km away when you talk about him or I see him. Fourth, things are great between the 'two of us who are really cute when you go crazy together' you know who. (Btw why are we really cute?! We went crazy tgt?!) We are friends so that's cool :) Nothing more nothing less. Fifth, 3G & 4G times were absolutely amazing, yes I do agree our gang is awesome :) Sixth, WAAMZX was before Jam! I can't remember when was Jam but I think WAAMZX was Sec 2 ~ Sec 3 and Jam was Sec 3 till...now. Haha yeah. Seventh, thank you fot he lovely encouragement. And last but not the least, I might not marry Chris after all. Spieling Peter is soooo adorable sigh. But I got super excited when I read "Chris Pine & Venus Pine Jrs." B)

Secondly, O Level results, better than the 15 I had a nightmare about. Was quite nervous before I went to collect it but then... I saw Jam looking back so...not so nervous after that heehee ^^ (Why do I always see his back profile huh it's damn unfair how I never see him from the front!) I'm really, really happy that I got straight As on my results slip! (which makes it look damn good if you cover the left side of the slip HAHA) So thank God for everything. Whether good, bad or just unsatisfactory, what's most important is to look forward to the new school year with an open mind & heart! I'm scared, nervous but really anticipating going to JC. I hope Fatz Teri & I (well @ least the 3 of us) can go to the same school, but if we don't, well, our friendship is stronger than a few kilometres of road. If you can understand what I'm saying, my English like not that boom boom powz. Congratz to the top 4 students they then boom boom powz! & of course to the top in our class Christina Xin Ting Zi Huan Jia Sheng Marc Wayne Yi Lin Tian Xun (shock horror shock surprise the guy I sit next to in class leh Zhou Tian Xun!!!), did 4G proud with your names up there! :) My mum was more nervous than me she actually wanted to demand the results slip from Ms Trina hah! She's out with my dad now, celebrating with a late supper for me. (I'm way toooooo bone tired & lazy to go out, & it's kinda weird that they're celebrating w/o the celebratee, if y'know what I mean) She's been on a frenzy, calling all my aunts and yakking away about my results. That's what you get when you're the first & oldest child in the family haha. Mum cried a little & wanted to sleep with my results slip under her pillow. She says she'll get the best dreams of her life. & I'm like, who who's the one who did the O Levels huh?! Haha. & so ends my secondary school life, I'm officially and O Level graduate :)

Thirdly, Fatz, I really want to kick you for forgetting my present. So, when we go ice-skating (SOOOON HOR), I'll give you a well-aimed one. Yeahp. Bring your own bandage. And btw, I was listening to this tonight: "I've got the right temperature to shelter you from the storm oh!" So irritating it's stuck in my ear! TMD.

I'll have good dreams tonight. I hope you do too! Goodnight y'all :)

PS. & before I forget, thank you to my Mum & Dad, for all their silent, supportive ways :) I love you. Thank you to my gang of awesome friends, being able to sit with you guys & chatting just before the exams allayed my fears, wishing each other luck, all the texts, thank you :) Thank you to my relatives for all the kaypoh but well-meaning wishes heehee. Thank you to Jian Le who never forgets us! Who always sends me awesome texts that make me smile so wide & laugh so loud! WHo is and has always been, one of my first few best friends :) Thank you to Jun Hao, the best senior from TEN! You've always been a source of encouragement & support for me, & I'm very glad that I have an older friend like you! And of course, to the greater being out there, I'm not sure if I believe in you yet, but thank you.

#40 - You're The Best Thing I Never Knew I Needed

2010-01-10T15:53:00.002+08:00

Jealous.

Superbly, inhumanely, terribly, jealous.

Peter Pan Pranks Disneyland Visitors!

2010-01-09T12:39:00.001+08:00

This is exactly why I want to marry him. Isn't he the cutest?!

#38 - There's A Place I Know If You're Looking For A Show Where They Go Hardcore & There's Glitter On The Floor

2010-01-08T18:41:00.012+08:00

My new obsession. Spieling Peter!

So now I'm seriously considering instead of moving to Los Angeles for Chris or England for Nando, I might just go to California Disneyland & audition to be Wendy Darling so I can stick around Peter all day long. & play hide & seek with him. No I want to marry him. By the way, it helps that he has blue eyes. That I can fall into. Sigh.

Okay I tuo1 my birthday post sooooooo long already. Not exciting anymore LOL. Ice-skating in the morning & I saw Chun Kit aka Mr Nobody @ Kallang! He was working @ the chocolate shop (I should have bribed him for some since it was my birthday HAHA) & it was nice to see someone I knew :) Saw Joanne Peh & Qi Yu Wu @ the Subway. She's kinda tall but okay mayeb cause I didn''t look down to see if she wore heels. Then out to Vivo cos it was eons since I've been there! Saw a small crowd gathering & you know me, typical Singaporean, I went to squeeze my way through & see what was happening. Turns out they were just waiting & I was wondering waiting for what? 50% discount? Free food? I got my answer exactly 5 minutes later when Jay Chou & Lin Chi Ling came riding up the escalatior. Damn they were like 1 metre away from me!!! & I'm embarrassed to say I got kinda starstruck & started jumping up & down like Tigger on steroids & screaming ZHOUJIELUN ZHOUJIELUN lulz I know right crazy woman. I had no idea LCL was next to him until my Mum told me. So my Dad who brought his trusty $1000+ Canon camera started snapping like paparazzi & I shall upload the photos soon. Kinda blurry though. Can see how close they were to us, & the best part was if I reached out I could have touched him! Coolz. So my birthday was a day of beauiful coincidences. Got home & there were a few surprises that were reaaaaaally awesome but I cannot say. Right this part is totally overdue but here it is & I know it doesn't sound exciting when I type it but it was a great 16th! B)

Thanks & love to Fatso 'Fatz' Teri & Jia Si Le for the pre-party! I loved the cake smearing thingy can we do it again on Fatz birthday heeheehee. 谢谢你for the jar of jam Fatz! But you know I want a jar of Jam right not just a jar of jam...I think you know what I mean. And the very bloody BHB Fatz wants this so...

THANK YOU FATSO 'FATZ' AW YONG!

Today my left leg got tanner than my right leg. & if I'm not sunburnt by tomorrow morning I will be super amazed. Wish you were there with me Fatz! :(

Off to wallow in misery with my Ben & Jerry's ice cream. (No Phish Food but I got my Strawberry Cheesecake!) I think I'll watch more 海派甜心 & then hibernate till Monday. Oh Monday. Reminder to self to bring more tissue paper.

#37 - Ain't Nothing Better Than An All Out Jam

2009-12-25T18:58:00.007+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

These 2 pictures were just too cute to ignore heehee :) In a very berry Christmassy mood this year! I just wish I was spending it in Los Angeles or London, where the feeling would be even stronger. With Chris & Nando respectively of course HAHAHAHA (I may have just turned 16 but that doesn't mean the huachi-ness goes away okay) So spent today with my Dad's side of the family @ Crystal Jade for lunch (小笼包 = NOM NOM NOMZ) & shopped for a while. Went to East Coast to get my roller blades & when we got home my brother & I spent 1 hour blading the time away! Really sweated it out & burnt off the heavy lunch. Had leftovers from yesterday's Christmas party @ home with my relatives for dinner & Dad cooked steak (He should be a chef it's bloody good with butter!!!) so I'm so full now. Not that I'm complaining heehee ^^ Watching the 7.30pm movie on Channel 5 with mangoes for dessert later. OH GOD I'M GOING TO BECOME FAT LIKE NO TOMORROW FAT LIKE FATSO DAMN.

Horoscope on Fb is so damn accurate. Shall stop reading the ones in the newspaper that one is super lousy.

"A non-stop flow of communication between yourself and the people in your immediate environment is likely today. You may engage in interesting and informative discussions or fritter your time away in inconsequential chatter and gossip. (Correct I spent lunch catching up with my relatives) Your ambition and drive to succeed are incredibly strong now. You will go to any lengths to achieve your goals, and you have the energy to do it now. (Yes I didn't even change out of my clothes after lunch when I got home & went blading immediately damn stinky heehee ) If things seem to be running smoothly around you let them. Clear understandings established now will last and serve you well as long as you don't push them. Staying on the conservative side and reconfirming old patterns have more potential than trying to emotionally start a new pattern. Sometimes leaving well enough alone is all it takes to make things work out. (Ummm yes proven today thank you Horoscope)

My mum says I shouldn't trust horscopes. Then I caught her reading them. LOL.

My birthday was an epic one. But I'm still lazy to talk about it so next post next post. Heehee. Off to watch Deck The Halls on Channel 5! Merry Christmas to all once again & to all, a good night :)

#36 - Love Till You Hate, Strum Till You Break

2009-12-23T13:18:00.004+08:00

Talk about my birthday another day. I'm so exhausted. (Why am I exhausted again? Didn't even do much physically exhausting things yesterday anyway.) My arms hurt like mad crazy today. I think I waved too hard & long @ Jay Chou yesterday. Which is, of course, another story for another day. But yesterday was good thanks to a few surprises here & there. Gods do work in the most mysterious ways to give us beautiful coincidences. So, thank you.

You know, I don't think I can take anymore of this. You can't just saunter in & do that & then make me feel so goddamn miserable. I cannot take standing @ a cliff's edge anymore. Either you push me down or you haul me up & stand me on firm ground. But you cannot choose can you? & so I wait there I'm goddamn hanging on in there but you still cannot choose can you?

Yes I have many things on my mind. Feeling dissapointed kinda tired achey achey arms excited @ prospect of going out tomorrow (My shopping quick fix) & @ ice skating soon soon soon! fed up contented hungry(haven't finished my birthday cake shall attack that after this) but mostly really, really disappointed. Don't know what to think now. Don't think I want to think about it.

Hoping dearest Fatso 's (I had to make this huge and fat just like you yeah)safe in Hua Lian! Come back fast, a certain Fatty here is waiting for you to come back & go online @ 10pm & yak gossip bitch talk laugh laugh laugh until we have 6 pecs and become bogeh kay. & I need a reassuring presence that I am not going insane. So, come back fast :'(

I have the most gloomy mundane boring uninteresting sadistic bleak dismal somber tenebrous cloudy cheerless dull spiritless vapid stodgy stuffy posts ever I feel like I'm @ a funeral when I'm reading them. Sorry. Next post shall be happier, no? :)

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"The emotional waters are a bit on the cool side today and if you encounter the cold shoulder, don't be surprised. Put a toe in the water before you jump in or you might run into the big chill. People taking themselves too seriously abound, so try not to be one of them. Take it all with a grain of salt instead."

Ah shit that explains everything doesn't it.

#35 - I Know Saint Peter Won't Call My Name

2009-12-21T15:58:00.003+08:00

Princess Diaries 1

I need to watch this, & Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement again.

I miss you Chris, my Lord Devereaux.

#34 - Maybe I Was Naive, Got Lost In Your Eyes

2009-11-28T14:17:00.005+08:00

Hello Disneyland baby.

Can't wait can't wait can't wait.

Fatso I wont't forget about the 西门町 picture :)

Once upon a time, in a land not so far away

On their return to Kansas

Dorothy bids the Tin Man goodbye,
"It is time for me to leave you, did you find your heart?"

"I found part of it, but it belongs not to me,

Beating with promise, & little else

Please Dorothy, come with me! Let us travel to the sea!"
"How can you proclaim your love for me, when you have no heart?"
"I found my heart, it was with me all along,

I found my heart. In you."

- The Wizard Of Oz

So sweet :)

Well anyway no time to update much, flying off soon (YEAH BABY BUT I HAVEN'T STARTED PACKING DAMN), planning more outings with the girls when I get back, (Picnic Beach Rollerblading Iceskating Mooooovie! Arcade even though I keep losing tmd Shopping & basically hanging out), thinking of visting Fatso @ Yoshinoya (Haha yes I might bring my brother if you want!)k, etc etc so can't wait for everything!

& Dad wants me to learn guitar.

(So I can serenade Jam right hahahahaha k joking)

Yeah gotta start packing so will update when back ^^

#33 - A Hollow Little Game, & You Play It

2009-11-20T16:45:00.006+08:00

Oh My God what do I say, this movie is epic. Abso-bloody-lutely spectacular. Pardon my language. The first part was like huh I don't really get it especially the part about the Director of the Louvre getting killed in the tunnel. Then it got really awesome with the graphics (I sound like a computer geekazoid I know)!!! The statue of Christ @ Rio De Janeiro crashing down, St. Peter's Square, the Eiffel Tower, the effects were really good. I got goosebumps when this humongous crack appeared down the painting "Creation of Adam" (the one of God touching Man on a cloud with a finger) in the Sistine Chapel in Rome. Kind of huge symbolism there! Pretty hard to believe that the characters managed to survive in a car & an aeroplane twice each time. (Who's so lucky right) Now I keep imagining, seeing cracks appear in the roads, pavements, bulidings. Haha kinda freaky right. & it was maybe a little coincidence (or done on purpose?) that Mankind escaped in an ark, & the main character's son was called Noah. Food for thought? I teared 3 times & cried once @ the end of the movie. It was really, really amazing yet bone-chilling to see all those buildings come tumbling down like flimsy little pieces of dominoes. And got me thinking how I'll never turn 19 the next day, December 22.

Home Alone Day 3 already! ^^ Having a helluva time w/o parents in town. Going out with Aunty Ah Ma Yvonne (Yeah she upgraded to Ah Ma, or should I say downgraded LOL) on Monday prolly, baking vanilla shortbread cookies soon (& decorating with a hell lot of icing sugar, rainbow sprinkles, silver balls, & whatever else makes your teeth fall out before 20), watching movies @ home with leftover popcorn, playing Cooking Mama on Wii, curling up in bed with my super thick library books. Life couldn't be better :)

Hope your holidays are going as well as mine! Christmas soon, can't wait for that too ^^

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#32 - They Got All The Right Moves & All The Right Faces

2009-11-14T12:39:00.005+08:00

No actually I like Jam better. Yeah.

But never mind marshmallows are good too.

:o)

Parents out of town all the way to next next Tuesday. Am gonna party around town those few days ^^ Am very very hyped up loads of things to do but foremost is shopping!!! ( Threw out half of my wardrobe heehee) Angela more anxious than me she just called me in the morning to arrange LOL. (I told her I cannot afford Gucci Fendi Prada Dolce & Gabbana.) Cheers to the holidays :) Cannot wait to meet up with them, it's gonna be awesome!

Pam I dunno if I can watch 2012.

Most probably I'm not going with you.

(So you got more popcorn to eat k! ^^)

Catch another movie with you some other day.

Holidays are lookin' good, so headz up!

#31 - The Fire's In Their Eyes & Their Words Are Really Clear

2009-11-11T14:08:00.006+08:00

"We've got our deepest hopes tattooed on our eyelids,

so when we sleep we speak fireworks."

Physics MCQ was a-okay. Pretty easy, shouldn't have studied for it. Hoping Bio tomorrow & Chem on Fri are as easy peasy lemon squeezy ^^ & oh am I looking forward to Friday! "Hi Ho Hi Ho, it's a job hunting we go!"

Holidays are packed I have tons of things to do!!! Hyped up hyped up. There's the part time job, there's classes with Pam & Vanessa, there's teaching Yvonne the Aunty how to roller-blade & then ice-skating, there's the class outing & BBQ, there's our trip overseas(!!!) etc. Excited it's just 2 more days to end of 'O's! (Pam have you realised that in the 3 years we have known each other we have not gone out together how ridiculous is that?!)

My birthday present/ Christmas present please?
Do they have a promotion, buy the jacket, get Fernando Torres free? Please? Pretty please? 8)

Ah what a good week.

Looking forward to December already.

Off to Tumblr!

#30 - Who Says I Can't Get Stoned

2009-11-08T14:07:00.003+08:00

Sorry, I'm back in control again.

Yeah I feel better.

Stupid brain.

#29 - Cause In Your Eyes, I'd Like To Stay

2009-11-07T14:42:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I hate myself.

Sometimes, I have only 1 true friend.

Sometimes, I'm afraid to talk to you because all the secrets might spill out.

Sometimes, I want to tell Fatso everything but I don't dare to.

Sometimes, I think I will collapse one day from all the hate inside of me.

Sometimes, I feel like walking away.

Sometimes, I think need counselling.

Sometimes, I stop thinking about it & get so happy.

Sometimes, I pray to God to forgive me.

Sometimes.

I don't know what to think anymore about you. I don't have anything to say to you. It's just a while more till. So I shall wait.

Ommmmmmmm deep breath ommmmmmmm.

I need inner peace I need to learn yoga.

#28 - The Lovin' Look That's Left Your Eyes

2009-10-31T13:08:00.005+08:00

It's been a hell of a week. I'm really tired. Yesterday I got home @ 9+ coming to 10pm and I asked myself if I could pull through this, pull through SS (Damn SS!) and Physics. I thought no. Everytime I walk into the hall I get so tensed up & afraid. 13 more days of hell.

Oh but talking about sitting in the hall. Thank goodness I sit next to somebody who gives me a free flow of sweets & is a constant source of amusement. I think that helps a lot especially before & after the paper. Thankful for that ^^

Had this super weird dream yesterday night. It included the Malfoys & Voldemort from Harry Potter, Lady GaGa, Abu Dhabi, rocks, a huge expanse of sea, my primary school, carpets, a school main hall, a buggy, my dad & my brother, and Jam. It was going to end really happily ( Cos of something to do with Jam) & then I woke up. But with a smile on my face.

New favourite song is the Torres song. LOL.

You lift my feet off the ground,
Spin me around.
You make me crazier, crazier
Feels like I’m falling,
And I’m,lost in your eyes.
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier.
Oh,

#27 - Steady Feet, Don't Fail Me Now

2009-10-23T13:17:00.008+08:00

Because these things will change
Can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
This revolution,
The time will come for us to finally win
And we'll sing hallelujah, we'll sing hallelujah, oh!

I love this part, which is the chorus!

The second chorus is awesome too, love the transition.

It was the night things changed
Can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It's a revolution, throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in!
And we sang hallelujah, we sang hallelujah, oh!
Hallelujah!

This song was featured on the AT & T Team USA Soundtrack. That's the USA Swim Team is I'm not wrong, the one that participated in the 2008 Beijing Olympics. It sings of the obstacles they went through and how they surpassed them all & emerged champions in so many events. (Who can forget Michael Phelps?) Pretty appropriate for what I ( & 75000 other 16 year olds are facing now.)

Probably last post here before 'O' Levels.

(Already planning what to do with Fatso already heheh ^^)

'O Levels might be tough, but we're a hell lot tougher!'

#26 - I Hear You Speak & Your Words Melt Everyone

2009-10-17T14:29:00.003+08:00

I just watched some Princess Diaries 2 video clips again.

Ahhhh Chris is so fine. (Heheh.)

I suddenly miss talking to Fatso. Not the crazy kind but the quiet, sit-down & just talk @ outside Grotto when everyone's gone home & we can heck care about everything else kind. Even though we hardly had a lot of that. But it was good. I'm missing a lot of things now. But now is not the time.

#25 - 1000 Broken Wings, Carried On 1000 Broken Hearts

2009-10-13T20:45:00.005+08:00

Id Lie - Taylor Swift

And I could tell you
His favorite color's green
He loves to argue
Born on the17th
His sister's beautiful
He has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him
I'd lie

New favourite song ^^ (Listen to it, that includes you Fatso even though I made you listen to it already heheh)

Today was pretty good. Studied studied studied. (repeat that 5000 times)Studying @ the cubicle (No not the toilet one) was okay lah, not as stuffy as I thought. Fatso tried to fish for me but her bait was bread. LOUSY. @ least bread with Jam right not heheh. Jesse came over to ka chiao people again as usual. (It's his 1 & only talent.) Studying @ library was not too bad either, today wasn't as crowded as last Thursday. All in all, good day. Better if I had looked up in the morning. (Fatso dreamt of Jam :'( Weird dream, weird person to dream of.)

10+ days. I shouldn't be here.

#24 - This Time I'll Be Bullet Proof

2009-10-09T14:25:00.005+08:00

"When they ask me what I liked best, I'll say it was you."

-City of Angels

(I mean, look @ the eyes.)

(THE EYES!)

Yesterday was good @ school.

Fatso passed me a bug, so we both sniffle & have fevers now.

(Take care Fatso!)

We got so tired of studying we took a walk around school, guess where we ended up.

On the 4th floor @ the Sec 3 Level.

Then we went to the 5th, & went back to 2C '07 old classroom.

I found a table that we used before! It was one with a arc carved into it.

& Oh man did that bring back memories.

Off to Tumblr bye ^^

#23 - It's Not Always Rainbows & Butterflies.

2009-10-05T15:56:00.004+08:00

Tricia these are for you.

(Stop giving that I SEE PAULIEEEEEE!!! face. Thanks hehe.)

6个字：拿得起，放得下。

SO VENUS STOP IT.

Tomorrow meeting Fatso!!! Heehee I miss you already. 40 minutes has been our longest phone conversation. Talk to you tmr.(L)

"I see the light beside you, & all at once/I am born again."

(Avalanche, David Cook)

#22 - Do You Feel My Heart Beating (Do You Understand?)

2009-09-28T20:36:00.005+08:00

Today was such a messed up, mucked up, day.

Firstly in the morning, I got so angry that I could cry.

(Who cries when they're angry lah.)

Then I got angry @ myself for getting angry.

(How damn stupid is that?!)

Secondly, I stayed angry. For the rest of the school day.

Thirdly, I don't know what got into me when I stayed back to do the Mock Exam.

(I think I just didn't want to see your face. Yes.)

Fourth, on my way home. I have no idea how to say this, but it was a bloody painful heart-wrenching moment.

It hurt so much to see someone smile so beautifully.

I'm at peace with myself.

Yes I am.

I love you Fatso. I think you already know but I do.

How much more superficial can you get? You're really not who I thought you were, & I can't believe I took 2 years to realise this.

#21 - I Loved You With A Fire Red, Now It's Turning Blue

2009-09-28T20:33:00.001+08:00

"All the lonely people, where do they come from? All the lonely people, where do they all belong?"

Eleanor Rigby, The Beatles

#20 - Come With Me Tonight,We Can Make The Night Last Forever

2009-09-26T15:48:00.006+08:00

#Edit/

"You have enough energy to go all day no matter what you are doing. Marathons of physical or mental activity are best although you can do well in almost any situation."

That was my horoscope for yesterday.

How apt!

(Yes I read horoscopes.)

Yesterday was awesome.

Yesterday I found out that sometimes 1 person is all you really need.

"Tea, a drink with JAM (Venus yells this out) & bread!"

No more poison/ killing my emotions/

I will not be frozen/ Dancing is my remedy, remedy

(This song stuck in my head like cannot turn off 'Replay' button.

Was singing it, & true enough, dancing was our remedy yesterday night ^^)

I learnt some very important things from yesterday.

Always bring tons of candles. Just in case you have an Aunty in your group who always wants to cry when the flame dies out.
Never dance to Nobody + Too Cool + Superman b'cos above equation = LEG CRAMP. A damn pain one if I might add. (No it wasn't me.)
Never fight with PRCs for chances to Cai1 Deng1 Mi2. (You'll totally lose.)
Have a lot of fun dancing & singing & don't give a damn about who the hell is watching you.
Love your best friends. All 8 of them!
Never, never get your hope us too high. Especially if someone is a nerd & doesn't want to appear & broke somebody's heart.(HAHA)

I'm sorry that I feel this way, I pray to God to take all the jealousy & rage & confusion away but it's like pent up inside of me. I try so hard to hold it all together but it seeps through the cracks. I'm sorry & I'm stupid @ thinking like this when I know I'm damn not supposed to! Please forgive me; I'll try to be someone better.

Have you ever felt so bad before?

#19 - She Ain't Anybody You've Seen Before

2009-09-24T13:16:00.002+08:00

"We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find."

#18 - Russian Roulette Is Not The Same Without A Gun

2009-09-23T16:20:00.000+08:00

#17 - Cause You Know That You're Living A Lie

2009-09-19T12:30:00.006+08:00

I know, I have a weird fascination with robots nowadays.

Pamela, wait until after 'O's kay. Will put it up then.

+ Change background & everything else in between.

Yesterday was a pretty good day.

Seeing some people made it better.

Heehee.

#16 - While I Dance Until My Feet Can't Feel The Ground

2009-09-17T18:23:00.003+08:00

Ignore the hi. I didn't write that.

THE SHOES!!!

& Practically everything else.

#15 - That Girl's A Genius Woah Oh Oh Oh Oh!

2009-09-13T17:17:00.003+08:00

They said: "Oh hey there girl, tell me what do you do"

She said: "Um nothing but I'm damn sure it's more than you!"

Utterly brilliant lyrics.

#14 - Try To Leave A Light On When I'm Gone

2009-09-11T14:29:00.003+08:00

8 Days, September 10 Issue 986

The Star Trek actor joked that having a Captain Kirk toy in his likeness was one of the toughest parts of fame.

"My friends have given me a lot of flak over [it]."

(The toy looks much nicer in the magazine.)

SMALL BUT AWESOME PHOTO OF HIM.

Chris Pine is the sex ^^

On this day of your life, Venus, we believe God wants you to know... ...

that it's your heart that knows who loves you, not your ears or eyes.
Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?

Jam, duh. Yeah I don't know what I'm waiting for I should have stood in front of him & nose bleedz today right?

#13 - Looking Down The Barrel Of A Hot Metal .45

2009-09-07T20:31:00.002+08:00

There's no Christopher Whitelaw Pine @ Co Co Perez.

I'm mightily pissed.

#12 - They'll Kick You & They'll Beat You & They'll Tell You It's Fair

2009-09-06T17:19:00.003+08:00

Today I coughed up blood.

#1 - You & I Will Be One Tough Act To Follow

2009-09-01T12:00:00.002+08:00

Avalanche - Marié Digby

Since when do you come around?
And the temperature's changed, nothing's the same
Left me, in yesterday
You don't see me that way, touched me that way, no more
When you get so cold, I'm not sure just how much longer I can hold

You got me standin' at the bottom of this mountain that we've
And the ground is shakin' from all of our mistakes
But there's no one, but then the ice is in our way
It's a matter of time
We can rewind

If you only knew, What my heart would do for you
I'm trying to break through,
Don't you think it's worth the chance?
Let's leave the past, Is that too much to ask?
And where do we stand?
Can we pull through this avalanche?

Yesterday I dreamt you were next to me. & Everything seemed alright again.

#10 - & When Love Is Dead (I'm Lovin Angels Instead)

2009-08-29T14:16:00.004+08:00

I’m in love with lomography.

The 2nd picture is one taken by a Lomo Camera. Pretty ain’t it? :> The super cute cameras don’t hurt either.

‘Lomography emphasizes casual, snapshot photography. Characteristics such as over-saturated colors, off-kilter exposure, blurring, “happy accidents,” and alternative film processing are often considered part of the “Lomographic Technique.” Users are encouraged to take a lighthearted approach to their photography, and use these techniques to document everyday life, as the Lomo LC-A’s small size, simple controls, and ability to shoot in low light encourages candid photography, photo reportage, and photo vérité through the much-touted “10 Rules.”

Prelims are very, very scary. But they’re not the end of the world.
‘O’ Levels are.

I ask myself all the time, if this is worth it. The answer, always unfailingly, is yes.

#9 - Look At The Stars, Look How They Shine For You

2009-08-26T15:44:00.005+08:00

How can someone be so perfect.

Happy Birthday, all the way to Los Angeles, CA :>

Luvvvvvvvvvvv.

#8 - Something About You Caught My Eye (Something Moved Me Deep Inside)

2009-08-22T12:27:00.002+08:00

Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.

-Louisa May Alcott

I'm gonna forget.

Forget every goddamn thing.

Forget every goddamn memory & start again.

(I hate myself.)

#7- Sweet Dream/ Beautiful Nightmare

2009-08-21T14:03:00.002+08:00

Law of Attraction :

I WANT I MUST I AM I WILL I SHOULD I WOULD I CAN DO WELL FOR PRELIMS.

Mmmm yeah.

David Archueleta's very cute :>

Liverpool beat Stoke today! Megaultra happy.

Doing Victory Dance now.

#6 - V is for Very, Very Extraordinary

2009-08-16T19:25:00.002+08:00

You are often loved because of your outgoing and fun personality, and you like to give hugs and flirt, but underneath of it all you are lacking heart. You find i...t hard to love others through all the walls you've built around your heart from being hurt so much throughout life, but you want to love, you desperately want that fun, romance that you see in others, but you don't know if you can have it in your current circumstances. You want stability, but at the same time you need change. You go from one extreme to another and often feel overwhelmed when you can't figure out something. You think about your life often and how you can improve your character. You find it hard to settle, but you really want to. You just feel like you need to find that balance, that heart that you've been missing for so long. You need to love through the pain, but it's so hard. But the walls need to crumble for you to truly be YOU..

Damn tomorrow got health check my double period English lesson cancelled = no 1 & half hour of Facebooking :'( No injections ftw!!! :> Save on tissue paper.

Wearing big T-shirts make me feel very loved. By the T-shirt. I love smelling like a guy :>>>

I think Marc has very good suggestions. Here's what he says:

To feel happy, find edible ink, & some food. Write HAPPY on the food & eat it. 'Cos you are what you eat.

(& In my case, find a huge jar of Jam, or Happiness Jam & binge like never binge before.)

Or just buy me my jersey lah. Home/Away kit also can, as long as got Carslberg + Adidas + LFC badge big big there can alr.

I miss Angela. I don't know why. Haha.

#5 - I'm just trying to change the colour on my mood ring.

2009-08-16T14:24:00.002+08:00

Am tired Am in need of moolah ( Who isn't btw) Am thinking of something other than this Am not ready for prelims Am not even ready for Paper 1 on Thurs (Or Friday. Whatever) Am giving in to a lot of people & my stupid thoughts Am reminded of health check tomorrow Am going to cry if got injection 'cos got fear of weird people poking needles in me Am laughing @ Marc's study guide Am not wanting to sit down for tuition l8r Am thinking of how insecure the outside world makes me Am wondering what's for dinner ( I'm not supposed to be hungry this fast!) Am thinking what a loser life I have Am thinking I am such a loser in turn Am in need of new things ( Food + clothes + life) Am missing somebody upstairs in front a bit in front a bit Am not supposed to be here.

#4- & I say Jump you say how high?

2009-08-12T16:03:00.003+08:00

THIS IS LUST.

http://sneakernews.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/08/vans-era-classickicks-03.jpg

CLICKCLICKCLICKCLICKCLICK!

Okay this is just to say, I need to wean myself off my addiction.

Yeah.

:'(((

#3- Made from Love, not blood.

2009-08-08T11:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was :>>>>>>>>>> & ^^ ^^ ^^ & !!!!!

I'm the happiest person in this world r8 now.

Luvvvvvvz.

#2 - You're Way Too Beautiful.

2009-08-05T17:37:00.008+08:00

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

This song is so awesome sweeeeeeet. Makes my heart meltz like ice-cram on a hot summer's day. Or when I see Jam :> Heeeeeeee listen to it.

Today was kinda like a rollercoaster ride. Really high in the morning & afternoon (After school haha I love canteen lah *winkz* & I think I hugged Teri r8 smack there haha Zo Mai Gawd)& then felt really exhausted during Biology test. 1 & a half hours of thinking about mitosis & respiration etc, = 60 MCQs = hypnotic effect by the time I got to Qns 50. I think I was half awake when I did the qns after that. Sighz.

Show & Share topic: How Jam is made. Ain't I smart ^^

I have a new smiley :>

:> :> :<<< :> :> is how I'm feeling now.

#1-^^

2009-08-03T17:50:00.003+08:00

'Cos you're only worth that.

No tagboard I think. Comments r below.

I know, I'm missing BangCrashBoom alr.

I love yoooooouuuuuuuuuuuuu.